I hate myself of who i am now. Hate the things thats going on and on in my head. Hate that im being neglected and definitely hate the hell im going through. What have i done? Whats going on? I freaking thought its over in me but clearly it hasnt and im so dead right now to do all these stupid stuffs. I was told im a coward and yes im freaking am. Im not happy and gladly be fine if i just got myself drunk and wake up next day telling myself it's thursday again.I dont need anything.All i want is stop treating me like stranger.I want to feel that me again. But i knew it doesnt matter to anyone. It always be like that since then. Im sucha a goner.